Why has having Mike in my life changed me and it so much? I promised I'd never be the girl who left her friends behind for a guy. Ever. So how come I can't be the same person anymore. How come people called and invited and confided like normal for a couple months but now most of them have given up on me. I try to work all the old things and people in but it just doesn't seem to be enough. My close friends here act like strangers sometimes. I feel like I've grown out of a lot, but am not prepared to just give up on the life I've built here. I've changed, sure, but that's natural and I don't know how I would have handled these occassionally inconsiderate or detached friends five months ago. What is going on and where am I going. What will I take with me when I leave here and what will matter now and in the long-run. Hmmm...that sounds sufficently dramatic. Ha. Off to bed then work all day tomorrow. Take care.